It Hurts

It hurts.
You have no idea how much you hurt me,
When I did nothing but love you.

You said it was you and me forever,
That I was still your best friend.
So what happened?
Oh right.
I introduced you to a girl you thought was cute,
A girl who was a friend of mine,
A girl who is now your new love.

A girl who replaced me in your heart.

And it hurts,
It hurts so much that sometimes I regret everything I did to help you win her over,
So much that I wish I was the one with a new love,
So much that I wish I could move away and forget.

So much that I wish we were still together.

But I can’t do that, not to two good friends,
That would be selfish of me.

But would it kill you to look at me once in awhile?
To really see me,
To see everything you do is just another needle driven into my skin,
And soon enough I’ll be covered in pins so all I can feel is the pain.

I feel like I have to tiptoe around you because you have a girlfriend now,
I have to be careful of every move, every word, every touch.
But all I want is for you to look me in the eyes and just fucking see me.
Not look at me, but see my sad eyes, look into my soul and understand.

But until then it will hurt.
And it will always hurt.
Because I’m not expecting anything,
I’m not asking for anything.
I’ll just sit here and wish my life away.
But until then, it hurts.